Dear Nanny

Sorry l didn't write yesterday l was so drained after the events of the day l came straight in and fell asleep, First of all it was the twins first day at big school del and l took them. Adam cried his eyes out. Daisy just went straight in and sat down she takes it all in her stride. Its been such a long week building up to the funeral. Robert has continued with all his shit and we have kept it together for you and mum. He blames himself and l am glad l hope the guilt eats him alive because if it hadn't been for his wallowing in self pity you would still be here. I wish we could rewind and get you out of that hell hole.

You would have been proud today dad put a suit on! he put a suit on and he escorted you with us on your last journey down the high street to the church.I hope you were watching over us nanny l like to think thats how it is. I believe their is another life and you are smiling down on us.
You stopped the traffic nanny how about that!

Walking behind you was hard to do Stephen and Daniel broke down But it was important that they said goodbye to you properly.

I read my poem in church l wobbled at the start but l thought of how you used to smile at my poems and that got me through. Derek told me he was proud of me and that meant so much nanny. Kieran looked every bit the geek. I know you loved him nanny but the bloke really needs help. He didn't shed one tear and he is the reason your'e there. I hate him. I disown him from this day on l owe that to you nanny.